1. Casiopea Nin - recent yet old news

    2012-02-22

    Today was awesomely strange. Productive, proactive and reactive, all rolled into one…

    Defensive, exciting, reviving and relieving. Enticing and rewarding.

    Thoughtful, and full of love.

    I’ve been realizing for quite a while that I need structure for my new professional life… Today, while conversing with the member of my Support System Board of Directors, Tam; my structure began to take form, and it will soon materialize.

    Oh, yes! The possibilities!

    To obtain clarity! To understand one’s true service to one’s community. To define one’s offering and target market!

    Today, 2/22/12 (yeah, all these 2’s!) has been AWESOME!

     

    2012-02-25

    The entire weekend was magical… Celi and Buddy have taken refuge here and they are both most welcome! The little Frenchie’s puppy breath and Celi’s bubbly disposition fill the air with promise and giggles… I love them both so much!

    I had the most amazing evening Friday night with Laura Martin Bovard and Tam Starita. We went to the Dominican University in San Rafael and witnessed a lecture/conversation with Eve Ensler and Isabel Allende. It was a life-changing event…

    Something HUGE is a-brewin’!

    And, while I have all the desire to pursue all this BIGness, I can only say -at the moment- that I am about to make a whole-lotta-noise…

    Earth-shaking, heart-moving, life-transforming noise… 

    These words are only the beginning… 

    THIS, is THE REVOLUTION!

    Brace yourself… Boundless Joy and Prosperity are ON THEIR WAY

    2012-02-29

    I am a mother… Again!

    Sweet baby Mr. Midoggie joins our loving family!

    I can carry him with only one of my hands… Not even 2lbs light. He is supposed to be as heavy as 20lbs. Lord! What a blessed surprise!

    Thank you, Landon! This is certainly a joyful event :)

    2012-03-19

    So excited! Life is good and I am grateful! My initial intention was for this journal to be nothing but mystery, romance and poetic prose. Life got in the way, but I am on my way to whatever it is the Universe has in store for me…

    Araceli is on her way, she has Buddy and a new place all her own… She will soon find happiness is not dependent on another human being (that is my prediction, may it be so!), therefore, I rest peacefully (as far as her goes).

    Mr. MiDoggie is growing, healthy and happy, Doggie-Bear is (slowly) accepting the fact that he will not go away, and Mimo is welcoming him with open paws, a little bit more each day :)

    Isabel is pleased with my work… I have SO many ideas, but not enough time (or energy!).

    I have enlisted Gabrielle to help me become more organized… I truly cherish her friendship and value her capabilities!

    I miss Jonathan dearly, and can’t wait to go to the Netherlands, or Barcelona, or Paris, or wherever he may be, just so I can give him a hug, and a kiss on his scruffy cheek! I miss that boy!

    Float Gallery just invited me to do a solo show. YES! A SOLO show! Oh my goodness! I am beyond thrilled!

    And, to top it all… My stepson and his lovely girlfriend have expressed their desire to move in with us.

    I love both of them dearly, and I know that it would be a huge shift if they actually end up moving with us, but it would also be a blessing. I SO want those kids to succeed! They deserve a fair chance… A chance they are not getting at the moment.

    Life can be rough, but if there is always a possibility for growth, for all involved…

    My arms are open, and I am ready and able to hold them, and the world.

    Life, is good!

    2012-04-09

    Wow! I cannot afford to write a whole lot. I am beyond busy, and that is great. The short:

    - As of today, Boronitas (Mr. Midoggie) can go up and down the stairs… Scary and fun, all wrapped up in a little crazy muffin!

    - I am behind on finished prints for my first ever solo show… Granted, it is a tiny little gallery, but I think there is a TON of potential. I wish I could take a couple of weeks off regular work and just write, create Art, write, create more Art, rinse, repeat…

    - Taxes, taxes, taxes… Need I say more?

    I know I can do it all, but I am longing for 48 hour days. Just sayin…

    Other than that, Life is beyond amazing, and I am forever thankful to the Universe, and to my Landon, to my sweet chirruns, and to new and old Friends. This week, I am especially thankful with Carlos and Carla, for all their love and companionship. Jose: I love and miss you. May you be enjoying yourself, wherever you are. We honored you this past week :)

    I personally honor you everyday. Here’s to seeing each other one of these centuries!

    2012-08-13

    I often find all the words in my head

    I often lose them when it comes to share them

    I find myself reciting brilliant phrases in my head

    And once discovered, I often long to remember them

    Long enough to jot them down

    And I seldom do

    It always happens whilst driving

    Or showering

    Or whatever mundane activity

    Greatness always surprises us in the midst of the mundane

    Greatness lives amongst us, often times dormant

    Most times merely waiting to be waken

    Bliss indeed…

    2012-09-02

    Georgy. 

    Marcela. 

    First day of school.

    Memories.

    2012-09-05

    Oh Life, Oh Life…

    I am SO here.

    SO alive.

    I vibrate, initiate, emancipate, congregate…

    I, I, I… I no longer wish to begin sentences with “I”.

    Yet, all is “I”, for my world begins and ends with that funny letter. 

    Oh well!

    YOU = I

    YOU and I are but 1

    Deal with it, he!

    2013-05-06

    excitement

    amazement

    delight

    a new life each day

    each day, a new welcome

    a new sunrise

    a new smile

    a new ‘thank you’

    a new opportunity to serve

    to connect

    to share brightness

    to be happy

    LIFE rules!

    Yes, it does!

    (and so does my awesome tortilla soup… Nom, nom, nom!)

    2013-06-26

    No hiding

    No longer

    Easy lies

    Convenient lifestyle

    Little phrases 

    Unimportant non-facts

    Simple thirst 

    Magic words

    Salvation within

    Hunger: Fit in

    Fit now!

    Inadequacy

    Fallacies

    Shame

    Toxicity

    Khafe sho!

    NOW

    Shed the fears

    NOW

    Shed the inadequacy

    NOW

    Shed the plastic vulnerability

    NOW

    Become vulnerable

    for real

    grab your gear

    taste your fear

    and…

    hit the ground RUNNING!

    2013-08-07

    So complete

    So adequate

    So comfortable

    equitable

    None of it matters

    Life always surprises

    One journey

    One thousand roads

    My son responds 

    he loves me so

    My daughter ignores

    she will appreciate

    One day

    one of these days

    One of these days

    it will be complete

    Until then

    It is all Life

    Beautiful

    Complicated

    Colorful

    Life

    Warm

    Satisfying

    Gratifying

    Life

    Sons

    Daughters

    Lovers

    Life

    Adverse

    Reverse

    Universe

    Converse

    Ranch dressing

    Plum jam

    from scratch

    Leadership 

    almost Motherhood

    Love now

    Love yesterday

    Love tomorrow

    In  retrospect

    LOVE forever.

    Let’s do this, Chefs, Offspring, and Lovers!

    Love ALL around.

    2013-11-29

    captivating

    illustrating

    emancipating

    elaborating

    all processes 

    wrapped in one

    empowered

    convicted

    devoured

    desired

    all wrapped in one

    oneness

    11:11

    for you

    for me

    for all

    all that know

    and all that crave knowledge

    2013-12-17

    marioneta 

    entusiasta

    pragmatica

    enigmatica

    indeleble

    y

    telele

    con esto 

    de la tecnologia

    marioneta 

    pendeja

    tonta

    que depende

    de una maquina

    cuando debiese

    depender de nada

    nada mas que 

    un papel

    un lapiz

    punto

    y coma

    mejor ya no coma

    porque engorda

    punto

    2014-01-07

    Today:

    Handsome yet narcissistic Roman for breakfast

    Cute blue haired American with a side of Vietnamese stylist for lunch A Hawaiian intermission, with Mexican-Jewish notes

    And, for dinner?

    A trio of Chinese puppies, paired with a German-Native American man…

    And a movie about Scottish freedom.

    International?

    Cosmopolitan?

    NO!

    Lo que le sigue ;)

    2014-03-14

    Funny, funny, funny, and… Coincidence?

    Heidi and I went out on a gf date, we enjoyed a pedi and then dinner at Trabocco in Alameda.

    Excuse my lack of poetic prose, but I have limited time and I just want to document tonight’s crazy occurrence. 

    Jim Conger (a LM applicant) sat next to us and paid for our dinner. It was a sweet, sweet gesture. His date was beyond lovely and I did not want to embarrass him. It was a difficult situation because he is not a shoe-in for the position, but he is, nevertheless, a very strong candidate.

    Should he not be hired by LM, I vow to take him out to dinner, to Trabocco, and I will pay for it :)

    Random (or not), sweet (very much so), and all in all, a fantastic dinner date with my very wonderful friend, Heidi <3 

    2014-03-21

    Today, I decided to become incredible.

    Today, my favorite day of the year, followed by a very funny/disastrous month (car issues, falls, burns, parking tickets, ha!) ‘and a very surreal week (4’10” man walked over me, reconnected with a friend from before birth, received messages from the afterlife, and more!) I decided to retract from that initial decision.

    No. I do not want to become incredible.

    Quite on the contrary.

    From now on, I will be completely, absolutely, and unabashedly CREDIBLE.

    I will say what I mean and mean what I say.

    I will be who I am and stand by it.

    I will be true to my word.

    Incredibility is overrated.

    I am, and will forever be: CREDIBLE.

    2014-04-22

    LU5TRO no longer lives in my humble yet wild imagination

    It is alive, and well

    Five years at a time

    For me, and many others

    It is the movement that will move mountains

    It is the ‘five’ that will entice communities

    To be more than individuals

    And less than silent passerby

    LU5TRO

    Here’s to you

    And to our next five years!

    2014-07-20

    Deprimida

     

  2. This insane longing

    Understanding of routine, but unwilling to succumb to it

    Fiery, highly intelligent, and slightly –just a tad- mercurial

    Confident, self-secure, and kind

    No TV or technology attachments

    Voracious reader, lifelong learner, open-minded

    Natural connector: willing and able to establish relationships with new and interesting friends

    Willing and able to design and redesign your body and mind

    Expert and curious lover, sensual, SO sensual

    Where are you?

     

  3. Por mi mente

    La poesia que por mi mente pasa
    no se agota ni se cansa
    so se muere ni se aguita
    se agita
    La poesia que por mi mente pasa
    se ilusiona y se apasiona
    se humedece y se desvanece
    no perece
    La poesia que por mi mente pasa
    se traduce y se divulga
    se desnuda y se desvela
    se comulga
    La poesia que por mi mente pasa





     

  4. no

    decido que no

    pero sigo

    pierdo al ganar

    convenzo a nadie

    pero se

    yo se

    lo que mas 

    te conviene

    bendito sabor

    ese que sabe

    a comunidad

    a carisma

    Hare Krishna

    incito a la comuna

    esa que cuando quiere ama

    y cuando no quiere peca

    y cuando huye

    ignora

     

  5. "

    next to you
    right
    next to you
    magical
    and clear
    it is near
    and logical
    it’s your turn
    it’s our turn
    aventura
    sin estructura
    viento
    sin desaliento
    tu y yo
    sin restriccion
    de
    tiempo

    quieres?

    "
     

  6. "uno mas"
    — 

    somos

    eres

    voy y vamos

    estamos

    infinito

    un momento

    presente

    latente

    consciente

    te siento

    me sientes?

    somos uno

    somos

    todo

    somos 

    nada

    la vida

    se nos acaba…

     

  7. Majo, ponte las pilas.

    Te me haces poco, pero aguanto

    Tienes posibilidades, las admiro

    Ponte las pilas, pendejo

    Aqui tienes una mujerona

    Oportunidad del milenio

    Tienes un poquito mas

    Pero no abasteces

    No por pendejo

    Mas bien, por flojo

    Te quiero

    Me gustas

    Pero, de ahi no pasas

    Ponte las pilas

    Majo

    Mi Majo

    Y, que quieres que te platique?
    Que soy chingona?

    Lo soy.

    Que no me conformo.

    Asi es.

    Me gustas.

    Te gusto.

    Ponte las pilas.

    Porque estar bonito

    Es un regalo sin merito

    Y a mi me gusta el esfuerzo

    Me lo he ganado

    Ponte las pilas

    Cabron

    Es por ti

    Para ti

    Yo tan solo te acompano

     

  8. Unfinished

    It isn’t fair, it isn’t nice.

    It is uncomfortable.

    It isn’t warm, it isn’t cozy.

    It is unacceptable.

    Me without you.

    You without me.

    It is a travesty.

    A malformity.

    Unfinished business.

     

  9. "hold back
    interesting concept
    ebullient stagnation
    quiet indignation
    repressed retaliation
    quiet feelings
    prevent a situation
    from boiling over
    oh
    they will boil over
    oh
    they’re boiling
    we are
    we’re exploding
    do not hold back
    please
    we serve no purpose
    behold the poisoned well
    behold the boiled poison
    do not hold back
    welcome tomorrow
    hold back
    no tomorrow
    know tomorrow
    poison and sorrow
    hold me, NOW
    never hold back"
    — Casiopea Nin 2014
     

  10. ""…No matter what our difficulties may be, we recognize that there is a deep untroubled stream flowing below all surface troubles and that we are of one substance with that stream. The soul knows no difficulties."
    James Thornton"